I am in the early thirties of my life and I am happy with two young children. I was not an amazing dancer. It was always painfully embarrassed. I feel upset whenever there is a condition of dance, even if it is ridiculous as it was when adults join during a child’s party! It was strange to provide good faith help; People try to teach me to dance while he is in the dance circuit (they are clearly decided that I need help). I had a friend’s comment on my “cute” dance and that strangers were mocking my dance by imitating him in front of me.
When I was in my twenties, I compensated for this in the only way I knew – by drinking a lot and losing every inhibition. I loved leaving it, losing myself on the dance circuit, enjoying music and lack of attention to what people think. I am now in my life where I have young children, I work a million hours a week in an intense job and I like to make the most of the weekends with my family, so I am very drunk to enjoy a night of dancing is not an option. Even when the cucumber has presented itself, I feel emotional anxiety with responsibility and physically with my mother’s older body and to the extent that I avoid dance completely.
I would like to be able to get there and enjoy music with my friends, but how?
Elianor says: I am very serious about this: Do it in the dark.
I went to the night of dance In the dark Nearly 10 years ago, I intend to force the person who took me, but breaking my cut off an hour after I was moving as if I was walking in a car wash, drowning in sweat, cheerful. Since then, it is the most enjoyable, the most enjoyable that I do on a regular basis and I am now the person who pulls others. “You will feel like NincomPoop for the first three songs, but by the last songs you will think,” It has already ended?! “They always do it.
It is clear that darkness means that no one else is watching. This liberates many people. You can try things or change your opinion without having any effect on anyone. Perhaps this is a kind of Pogo dance. Maybe I am exciting now. I wonder if I can do this Which – which Something – it does not matter. No one can say.
But you too Do not watch yourself. In the dark, you feel like you are slightly receded until you are just a pair of eyes, and the only comments you get from your body are what you feel instead of its shape.
We are used to seeing our bodies in a limited group of roles. Is it attractive, is it physically decent, can you perform the tasks I need? Even when you dance in front of people, you are evaluating it. But there is a full set of physical fun There we do not play in many adults. Do not care about a successful dance, I mean just fun – reminding yourself that you can be ridiculous, spontaneous and vibrant the way children are.
Feelings often follow behavior, not the other way around. It may be to ask yourself to stand and dancing at a wedding that asks to take a lot of large hops at the same time. You have to collect physical coordination with the previous emotions of embarrassment and the current contradiction towards your body, and it ends up like trying to moisturize your head and rub your stomach at the same time.
It may be useful to do one bit at one time. “Restore a feeling of fun in my body” is one thing that you can accomplish by dancing in the dark, even if it is alone, even if it is in your bathroom with Headphones. Once the physical fun and decoration stopped feeling absurd or impossible, then You can think about what might make it fun with others or with lights. There will be transitional points in the middle of the road (just a idiot and the lips coincide on the dance circuit with someone you love? Request and then dance on songs with pre -made dances like Macarena?). Trying to change one thing each time may help change the entire package over time.
You are not very embarrassing or very comfortable or very “mom” so that you don’t enjoy this part of life. Deee-Lite on this one: the groove in the heart.
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