Rachel Kirkonil opens around Its sudden disintegration From the star “The Bachelor” Matt James, saying that she was blinded by her ex -boyfriend when she announced their division on social media. She says she is still saddened by the relationship.
Bachelor’s star revealed the nation in a Tuesday episode of Podcast “Call her father” James released his famous prayers about their disintegration without her knowledge, on the same day they separated and before he stumbled on a 12 -hour trip from Tokyo to Atlanta.
“It looked almost [him] Kirkonil told Alex Cooper host: “Her saying as if the prayer was easier to say that instead of saying something real, a real thing for our actual relationship.” “It is very. I think he did not surprise me that he said this in this way, I think I was only surprised that he said it at all. He published it.”
James, who starred in the 2021 season of the ABC dating competition, announced in mid -January Instagram He and Kirkonil were divided four years later together, and they wrote, “The Father God, gave Rachel and be able to fix our broken hearts.” He also prayed for “peace on this decision to end our relationship.”
At that time, Kirkonil, 28, only Glimpse online James has made the call without it. In her interview this week, the graphic designer – whose experience with the controversial season “The Bachelor” and then – went to more details about their emotional division, saying that she forgives him but she feels “that he is not respected for me to do so”
She said: “As it is difficult, I think the right decision is to defend myself and be alone.”
The contestant, whose history is dating, admitted a “really insecure” feeling in her relationship with the former NCAA athlete and said she had difficulty trusting him. (However, reports refused that he was not loyal.)
Kirkonil said that the first two years of dating “was really enjoyable”, and by the third year she started asking James about the location of their relationship. She said they seemed to be in Lockstep in terms of participation, wedding and children’s gathering.
“It is crying to look back now because when we talk about things, it always seemed that he was on the same page. She said through tears:” If we were making interviews, whether he responds to people in comments talking about marriage. “So. The words were present, and we are talking about taking the following steps, but it is clear that the actions were not there. “
On their last trip, Kirkonil said, continued to talk about their common future. Although they did not move together, they practically lived together because of the amount of travel they did with each other.
In Tokyo, on the night before her disintegration, Kirkkonilel said she was “sunken” because she was scrambling to find a place for dinner, because many James professions depend on photographing the content of “good food sites.” When she finally chose a place, she was not what she expected and had a “small collapse” because she felt that she felt disappointed James.
“It was just one of those things that I am tired, eccentric, emotional, in my menstrual period, I feel terrified, and celebrated the search for a dinner spot for an hour, then we get there and it was disappointment,” she said. So I started tearing for dinner. Two tears. One, two. We have finished. [I] I did not allow myself to be annoyed after that, just try calm. “
But she said, they remained silent through dinner. When they returned to their hotel, James told her that he was concerned about extreme discomfort. She said that she was confused by his reaction and was disappointed by the lack of comfort and support from him.
“He was trying to express me like,” if you are emotional about small things like this, what would happen in life when something really terrible happens? ” [He said,] “How will you be able to respond to things that are actually scary, disappointing or sad?” And … it is painful to hear. … I felt like I was punished for crying. “
She said that there is another small dispute on their way to the Tokyo market the next day, opening a “box of worms”. This led to a greater argument that allows a “larger conversation” about James’s feeling for a while. She added that James said, “He felt a strong weight of marriage on him” and told her that they were not compatible.
“He was definitely out of anywhere. He said that at the end of the day, there were only qualities of me concern about the existence of a wife,” adding that she told her that she was facing a problem in taking responsibility for her mistakes – although she was the one who apologized first, even when she was not Error.
She said that he told her that he should want to marry her now, but he is still ready to suggest – and he could not see himself suggesting her at all in the future.
“It was really so much to hear once because a few days ago, I hear the opposite. He loves me and wanted to work, but I think at the end of the day he still doesn’t think I am the person for him.”
The division called “very, very painful”. Shortly after their decision to end the relationship, she made her way to the airport to arrest a trip to the homeland on its own. When she was on the plane, she was sent by a friend of the James Instagram job, which she had not yet seen. Then the plane took off and could not connect to the Internet until it landed. She said she sat down about what people say about his position and their disintegration.
“I still do not know if the reaction of anger or despite that, or if it does not mean that. To be completely honest with you, if he does not publish it publicly, just as he separated from me directly, I do not know even where we will be now.” “Because I think that when someone tells you that in your face -” I don’t think you are personal, I never imagine us – it’s time to walk.
“Just as I cannot get around, even if you want it, even if it is difficult for me to leave it. I love him so much and I wanted to be my partner but when someone says to you, you have to give it up at that stage.”
James, a real estate broker, a businessman and founder of community planning, has not yet commented on the Kirkkonil interview, and a representative of the reality star did not respond immediately on Wednesday to request the Times to comment. Kirkonil said he had since admitted that he had not made the right decision to publish the statement without giving its heads.
James The first black male on “Bachelor” She previously appeared in the Hannah Brown season “The Bachelorette” as a friend of the contestant Tyler Cameron. Before the James tour, Lawyer Rachel Lindsay was the first black person of either sex to lead the concession as “The Bachelorette” in 2017.
The former soccer player and Kirkconnell occupied the headlines during the conclusion of 2021 after he made a decision to give her the final rose, but wanted to continue to dating it instead of participating.
“After the final rose” – the special reunification that updates viewers on the events since the end of the shoot Racist It was contaminated with a lot of their season and forced Racist In the show.
The controversy over the Brotherhood party under the south of Kirkonil’s past led to The overthrow of the “Bachelor’s” host, Chris HarrisonWho became involved in the repercussions when, during an interview with Lindsay, reduced the 2018 images that include the contestant.
